Red Roses

Theres a pedal for every emotion on my heart
bright red roses set me apart
The drink pain like water
as I'm nurtured by our father

Long stem
leaf on the left
writes an instrumental song
that amputates the right way
to look at life

Ive picked such sweet roses to look at
but each rose left a whole unfed

now thorns help my hands bleed
to paint each rose bright red
I'll bleed to grow more red roses

My FootSteps In The Dark

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Watch Me Fall

Im in the presence of reality
but I cant help to question myself

My eyes turn gray as they fade into sleep
Dreams are nightmares with a smile

where he tells me the lies

your no good for life
you cant take the razor away
watch it become you
scratch your name

and watch it bleed

...

Im here but still absent
and I turn into a bullet

here Im power against life
to show you Im not real

WATCH ME FALL

Ill even let you pull the trigger

The Lord Said "I Love You!"

Show me your stillness
as I hold the hands of silence

Ive spoken softly tonight
to keep my ears open to your whispers

Here I can sleep safely with you in mind
Where dreams lay still as well

Thats when you said "I Love You"

...

Time is frozen in this moment
As I'm slow dancing you stitch your spirit gently inside me

I listen but still cant hear
fear takes me slowly again

Words are slow in this story
being written, ink is low

I slowly turn to lead

As I write recklessly
you erase my mistakes
and perfect each sentence
so when I re-read over my depression

Thats when I read "I Love You"

So show me your stillness
as I hold the hands of silence

Ive spoken softly tonight
to keep my ears open to your whispers

Here I can sleep safely with you in mind
Where dreams lay still as well

Thats when you said "I Love You"

The Lord Said "I Love You!"

A Place With You

Your eyes are crystal clear here

Alone...

sand hides between my toes
but hidden in the sand is your love

I dig and dig for the perfect sand to build the best sand castle I can imagine
but talent is low today

This footstep is home
near your waves
I find the embrace Ive been looking for
but loose from time to time

leave me out the water
and let me fine your presence else where

why...

why can I see your stillness in a smile
your love in a hug

but in silence I loose myself but still remember you?

your eyes are crystal clear here
Alone These footsteps are forgotten
but your eyes see my every step

...I know you wont forget

Awaken The Spirit

There's a sadness that fills his eyes
like shooting stars
he's rarely seen crying

Placed in and out of surroundings,
his sky turn gray before he storms inside himself

and when the ground forms to mud
he finds the love he lost long ago inside your heavens

Here footprints in the sand are lost
but never forgotten

and your imprint is my memory...

Ive rotten as an individual
but this prayer will clean me up

Today the sky ends its morning one more time without you
and the sunrise will awaken my faith in this situation

The Truth Is...

next to me is the air you use to breath
its a story of the week I fell asleep
one is one and two is you
both a friend and a father I once thought I knew
but I'm gone and your free

Thoughts are clear
yeah
they're clear when im dreaming

but this song
confuses my mind and my feelings

im okay but im not
im starving but i forgot to water these emotions

dance like a sunflower planted in place
with the wind hitting my face
i dance along the time that use to be laced with your presence

but life stresses soil
and I seem to fall asleep for this season
in hope to forget I miss you

Quote

"If Thoughts Were Money,

I'd Be a Millionaire"

Broken Silence

Part 1

silence can be broken
when words find a voice to speak thru
I'm here to speak the unspoken within myself

...Or I can try

Here air is nothing but a whisper
hindering thoughts lock me in place
..I stay still again

stuck to pretend not to have one word

silver rain falls and sharpens each sentence I'd like to one day speak
cuts my vocal cords

so I stay soundless

but silence can be broken

9AM Tomorrow

I've wanted to see your sunset again
just so I could say good morning to you by 9AM

Its reds and yellow warmth hug me in its distance

To see your smile form by clouds stitched in the sky
I just want to see you cry a million tears of joy
before I go...

to break in your storm
I break out loud like thunder

here we rain a normal thunderstorm
viewed by only GOD

Your too important to say goodnight to
Your too important to even want to loose

But ill have to soon say goodbye to you
Alone I'll stay like the moon

and

I break in your storm
Out loud i cry like thunder
but here in the middle of the day
we rain like a normal thunderstorm
soon to pass away by 9AM tomorrow

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It’s so dark this morning
…and I forgot the words to say

When my nights are still and frozen
…Frozen I remain

And my thoughts today are broken
When my lights fades away

away you are like always

so away I will Stay

Dare To Hope

Word by word
I read the emotional poem inside your sentence


Its began with a joke, I couldn't smile
And ended with a mild rain fall
Cut in half


Just like my Hope I sometimes close
You dare us to open back those doors
But I still couldn't write inside your journal


Your name was lost inside mine a long time ago


And now the days go by so slow
I rather sleep then cry Hopelessly


But I still Hope for a better day around December
And when I can't seem to remember the good in life


I still Hope…

Unspoken

It's to late to look at me now

It's time to walk forward
and let the night say goodbye

I'm not here like you thought
I've been gone all this time

I'm sorry once again

But I can no longer pretend
that i can stay a moment longer...

Window smile stay locked away
and untouchable
kissable words taste to good
not to say
but such words are better left unsaid


and

wordless sentences make
perfect phrases that are heard clearly

so today I'll stay
unspoken

How I've Felt

I've waited for the day to end today

again

I pretend that freedom sleeps inside of me

tears don't fall in this month of April
only rain speaks of sorrow
but never me

now my sentences are laced with lies
I dare never to say but I cried again yesterday

I cried for the unspoken truth that I haven't told you

Sing To You

I want to sing to you
Say the things I cant speak of and hide them in this melody

I want to form some words into song
Sing all day long
In the thought of you

I can’t say I love you when words are spoken
This time I’ll hide them in this soft noise

It’s almost a whisper that kisses the air
But this time I want to show you how much I really care

And have you ever heard this song?
Could you sing the course with me when I’m to shy
To sing out loud

Sing it with me
In this hidden sound that falls asleep by ten

My Words

Part 1

My words don’t mean a thing

They don’t speak but that’s only because they don’t know how to talk…

Even though I’ve tried so hard to make them be heard
There still so silent

My words are nothing

Not a face
Or eyes
Or even mouth

They can escape
Nor replace the feelings inside me

My words are just words
And yes I see that
That may be true

But have they ever really or truly spoken to even you?

This Journal

Stepping back just to look forward
Notes here are unspoken words

secrets lay inside this pencil
and I'll write until I break

I've broken many times
resharpened life to speak

I've smudged the Little words
as I cried in my fear

I wrote about you...
today was written in the memory of yesterday

These words where yours before I could think of them

It paints a bitter smile
It caught up to me just when I thought I was okay

I see them erase in the rain of my saddness

The Length of Time

Why have days stretch out?

...so long

they seem to carry on
like a song so old you cannot stand
like a moment way to cruel it never ends

They stay...

They stay to watch me fall in love with dawn
though they know I want the mornings light and sun
but day, It only saddens and night it bitters me
stuck right in the between
when will you be able to see

That days are timed moment in our lives

and our lives are way to short

we caught ourselves on fire

and messes of all sorts

...

and day somehow still seem to long

Breath

This was our conversation
Words were stitched inside the darkness
to pierce my soul with your sentences

and I'll admit at first I thought all you did was suffocate the truth
but truth was found in silence this time...

Even though your phrases cut my ability to breath
and night stood so still so we both couldn't sleep
we chose to sit and stay to let emotions awaken

and they woke up...

Mixed inside the air
we look like a thunderstorm
but in some way we both seem to care enough to listen

I heard how the thunder cries
and you heard how rain falls

Tension filled a room so thigh that air is hard to find
and I gasp for life but I sank Inside that moment

I sank deep enough to breath a Thank you to you

Page One

The sun is blinding even at night

I press soft on this clear page full of silent lines
soon to scream my truth as of today

and I thank you in this sentence
It's the only way I know how

But I'm still unsure about what I should feel...
It's another way to ask myself if your real

and I don't know....
Do I even want too?

Its the first page...
Page one
and I don't know what to say

My mind is cluttered in every way
but there's still and urge to say "Thank you"
So I Thank you in secret

Still I Thank You

...Today...

The Way You Love Me

- By Jimmy Lopez-Garcia

I was more then unworthy of your love
I couldn't stand your name now I can't walk away from you

I've tried proving you wrong but you proved yourself to me
and now I wonder if what I see, you see

You build my spirit
and I drew a picture of how it'd look like when we're closer

You heard my cries
and in your picture you hold onto me

When I couldn't understand...

I couldn't open my eyes and simply see
all the time you've spent loving me

The way you love me is braided in my soul
and you are my everything my all in all

You

There's so many words to say
I can't speak them all
I can't build a sentence
to try to break my fall

but I can say "I thank you"
and I know you heard me to
when there is always midnight
where small stars light me Through...

I see how to see just for today
though I break
and I've broke all the way

You will understand me
understand the simple truth
But right when I stepped inside here
I lost the thought of you

Why I Walk Away

Its like a silent moment

That shies away the sun
The reasons you walked away

Is why I began to run

The motion of your words
tell another story
The things I know are true
are said by God for me

It works in many ways
and I chose to Hide these words
I don't give it away
and I want to Hate you

You tell me nothing else
You don't have to say one thing

I want to just walk away
Before I hear you sing

Away From Me

I never noticed how sunlight was red
inside the morning where everything's said
where all of my memories were able to be erased like led
yet I told you I'm not okay

I noticed night was different
and dawn seemed to skip
It's like a belt of worries locked around my hip

You don't even know me
you don't want to understand
But your always there for me
when I can't seem to stand

Maybe it's no difference
Maybe I'm just gloom

you hate my every whisper
laced around the moon

Just Go, Leave

I can hear your footsteps cling to the phrases of goodbye
its like a story lost within those many times or moments we shared
when I use to beg you not to go in secret

I've spent days simply watching the sun disappear
Hoping you'd stay near but people always go


And this time I said "Go, Just Leave"


Stuck inside these profound thoughts
Like a conflict stitched inside me
So deep that I can no longer see
the reason Not to be upset

"You Don't Sound The Same"

You seem so different that I'm not even sure who you really are
and your voice is near but I see you and your beyond far

I lost myself in distance this time
and it's okay

and this day...

today will be the day I say no thank you and leave

Small Note

Can you hear these silent whispers disappear
fade away into our atmosphere
and I'm still here waiting for an answer

clues say goodbye

and
others say its for good
when I cant think of anything or anyone

I wonder if what I've learned is really understood

Why

Falling back
I seem to stay stuck in stillness
and the wellness of my being fades to black

long to reach that happiness you spoke of
disappears...

when I feel near to you
you seem so far
and far you are

we all take steps
but steps get lost in time
Echoing away I slip inside that darkness

I should be happy by now
but I cant seem to stop pretending

now where is my life heading

when all i want is that point
where life begins its ending

Silent Panic

Footsteps pass to watch over my uncertainties
And I replay the memories I’ve made up about you
Just to smile

It’s the craziness of time
That sharpens my silent panic
And by night I already feel that painful static

Of what the embrace of your words might feel like In person
And it hurts worse now then back when
Distance was just a possibility
But I can even remember when you chose to leave

I hate these simple facts…

It’s like an attack of truth rushed back
And I lack the ability to hope

But when I see you face to face
Will be the day I’ll able to cope

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Look How chilly they smirk

window smile say goodbye

ugly
empty flavored blood
softly break me all day

our frozen sleep
slept before sunset

swallow my thought

scream all we can
or evil could rust inside you

You Couln't see Me Here

-By Jimmy Lopez-Garcia

Its a dark sidewalk to dark to even take small step
but still I took those steps secretly that god only knows

down that road I see this lifeless face in the mirror
cold room locked within myself
and all I can hear is a voice saying "goodbye"

are you near when I cant smile
I faked my laughter today
yet you thought it was real
and how can you say I've been pretending

when my pretending wasn't even visible

Around those streets are empty crowds
the fill up spaces but not around
They say they're real and they'll be there

but silent whisper say "They don't care"

and I can't help but to listen

Now it way to dark to even see your face
your voice is distant and out of place

and you were never sorry for blowing out the candle

I'm Always Brought Back

winter can break a smile
calm the sun
make the wind blow

cold kisses frostbite my
long to love hope

and I choose to look down again

My eyes are blinded from anything that could be good
its like fear rushed back to block everything
I once again misunderstood

That
Everything or forever means nothing and temporary

now the sweetness of night its false romance
of how beautiful starts shine like tears of joy

remind me to for some odd reason not smile upon the memories
I've learned to timidly cherish openly

and stay here to only try to fall in love with my solitude
I'd truly like to abandon

This Time...

I ask myself

keep asking why I turn to you

I don't know why

cant see why there's reasons to

I need to know

Or hear you say a promise

but I can't hear the things you've said...

I woke-up today

open my eyes just to see

The sky was red
and everything was white it seems

But I saw you in memories

of yesterday

and you where there all along this time

I Don't Need You Around

About This Poem:This poem is about someone new and being able to feel like you can trust them even if you dont know them that much and ending is about wanting to say thanks for trying to be there

I've almost let you become a friend I promised I'd never let myself have again
I don't need more people but somehow I can trust you more then them
and this I don't pretend to say

I hate that your there and I believe it so

can you stay in that state of where we joke
and plaster a smile
we both seem to force

that ride back turned to silent roars
of thoughts

and for one moment I almost wanted to talk

I almost called you my friend

I almost turned back and said thank you
once again to a stranger I rather hate

To Say GoodBye

I fear the day the day I smile

I know by now how to handle pain
but the game of happiness is a whole new level
when that blissful moment comes to an end how will I cope
and learn to loose that friend

"I'll miss you"

When your gone
and knowing you know as much as you do

will I be just another story to add to your list

I'll find a moment a moment of hate
just to hate you

just to make that goodbye
easy,easier

will you loose as much sleep as I will
or are you looking forward for that day to come to an end
and sleep again in your old life before you came

If it hurts this much right now to think about it
I don't want to know how much it'll hurt that day

I barley know you my friend

…Can I even call you one if that's so?

But I don't to say goodbye
I don't want to see another one go
But I guess I'll learn to say goodbye again

"GoodBye"