Silent Panic

Footsteps pass to watch over my uncertainties
And I replay the memories I’ve made up about you
Just to smile

It’s the craziness of time
That sharpens my silent panic
And by night I already feel that painful static

Of what the embrace of your words might feel like In person
And it hurts worse now then back when
Distance was just a possibility
But I can even remember when you chose to leave

I hate these simple facts…

It’s like an attack of truth rushed back
And I lack the ability to hope

But when I see you face to face
Will be the day I’ll able to cope

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Look How chilly they smirk

window smile say goodbye

ugly
empty flavored blood
softly break me all day

our frozen sleep
slept before sunset

swallow my thought

scream all we can
or evil could rust inside you

You Couln't see Me Here

-By Jimmy Lopez-Garcia

Its a dark sidewalk to dark to even take small step
but still I took those steps secretly that god only knows

down that road I see this lifeless face in the mirror
cold room locked within myself
and all I can hear is a voice saying "goodbye"

are you near when I cant smile
I faked my laughter today
yet you thought it was real
and how can you say I've been pretending

when my pretending wasn't even visible

Around those streets are empty crowds
the fill up spaces but not around
They say they're real and they'll be there

but silent whisper say "They don't care"

and I can't help but to listen

Now it way to dark to even see your face
your voice is distant and out of place

and you were never sorry for blowing out the candle

I'm Always Brought Back

winter can break a smile
calm the sun
make the wind blow

cold kisses frostbite my
long to love hope

and I choose to look down again

My eyes are blinded from anything that could be good
its like fear rushed back to block everything
I once again misunderstood

That
Everything or forever means nothing and temporary

now the sweetness of night its false romance
of how beautiful starts shine like tears of joy

remind me to for some odd reason not smile upon the memories
I've learned to timidly cherish openly

and stay here to only try to fall in love with my solitude
I'd truly like to abandon

This Time...

I ask myself

keep asking why I turn to you

I don't know why

cant see why there's reasons to

I need to know

Or hear you say a promise

but I can't hear the things you've said...

I woke-up today

open my eyes just to see

The sky was red
and everything was white it seems

But I saw you in memories

of yesterday

and you where there all along this time

I Don't Need You Around

About This Poem:This poem is about someone new and being able to feel like you can trust them even if you dont know them that much and ending is about wanting to say thanks for trying to be there

I've almost let you become a friend I promised I'd never let myself have again
I don't need more people but somehow I can trust you more then them
and this I don't pretend to say

I hate that your there and I believe it so

can you stay in that state of where we joke
and plaster a smile
we both seem to force

that ride back turned to silent roars
of thoughts

and for one moment I almost wanted to talk

I almost called you my friend

I almost turned back and said thank you
once again to a stranger I rather hate

To Say GoodBye

I fear the day the day I smile

I know by now how to handle pain
but the game of happiness is a whole new level
when that blissful moment comes to an end how will I cope
and learn to loose that friend

"I'll miss you"

When your gone
and knowing you know as much as you do

will I be just another story to add to your list

I'll find a moment a moment of hate
just to hate you

just to make that goodbye
easy,easier

will you loose as much sleep as I will
or are you looking forward for that day to come to an end
and sleep again in your old life before you came

If it hurts this much right now to think about it
I don't want to know how much it'll hurt that day

I barley know you my friend

…Can I even call you one if that's so?

But I don't to say goodbye
I don't want to see another one go
But I guess I'll learn to say goodbye again

"GoodBye"