Monday, December 29, 2008 But Then I Said I’m Sorry?

But Then I Said Im Sorry? -By Jimmy Lopez And he breaths his air calmly Like a still day in life When I can't smile He seems to relaxed to begin to care I slowly begin to not care as well I'm okay in this darkness because you placed me here And now that "I'm settled " You're no where near But I wont miss you when were face to face And I hold this secret locked in place Yet I said "I'm Sorry"? There's more then scared in this phrase But I seem to do everything wrong I'm the one who always seems to change That's what you claimed Under your sentence was less then what you call truth And I said "I'm Sorry" When you claimed you were trying to be there But were more then just absent And can't even realize it yourself But I was the only one who was sorry…

Monday, December 29, 2008 They’re There In...

Monday, December 29, 2008

They’re There In... They're There In... -by Jimmy Lopez Silent whispers hold this cry Eyes look inside my soul but I still wont tell Close my mouth to shush you but even if I were to want to Reading my lips is not simple… Tell me yours and I'll tell you mine… Someday Are there more then one…yes Rolling tong my words can't spill Every thought is mine to feel and so I do Throwing hints in every poem Here's the biggest one Every star had a promise they couldn't keep Regretting their actions Everyday I've done nothing wrong Nothing but if you want to know… There it is in the second to last word Here I lay in pain again because of the silent words I'm Sorry Waterfall of emotions fall from my eyes Over flooded my passion to want to live…but I do Regret Drowning in these thoughts of You…

Tuesday, December 30, 2008 Selfishly Me

Selfishly Me
-Jimmy Lopez

How can you say such words
you dont know how much you've been the reason
to why I hate myself now
both of you dont understand how much I'd love to bleed alseep

and now "I love you" is a joke

Yes, Im sorry for wasting our time
but you'll never know how much it hurts to awaken in a place so dim
and my hope now has gone frail and slim

I'm sorry for worrying for myself and "being selfish"
When all I really got is me
I'm the little bit of home I got left

life loves you both of you I don't got much to worry for
Time has helped you become strong
but all you do still is say I'm wrong

Your voice is a curse to my heart
The great, life keeps getting on your part
Brings me to the title you've given me...

but whos really being selfish in the dark?

Thursday, January 01, 2009 Secret Suicide

Secret Suicide
Current mood: blah
Category: Writing and Poetry

About This Poem: it's just about feeling dead from the inside and not feeling like yourself anymore without anyone knowing you've in a way given up on yourself and your will to care. its not about killing yourself but about being lost inside that thought and the "what ifs"

Secret Suicide
-By Jimmy Lopez

Im not dead but
I fell in this liquid darkness
and drown within my own words

It dares me to Breath this pain
deeper then my bones

It calls me
Forms an hour so dark and near to death

I'd touch those razor kisses
but it leaves my heart a mess

I'd bleed within two minutes
away, I'd fade away

But I chose to believe in Someday
yet inside there's still no way

That eyes would open clearly
and dawn I'd want to see

but in me is a heart I've broken fonly
and now im not even Me...

Saturday, January 03, 2009 Why Did I Say Hello?

bout the poem:This poem is about a "friend"? i guess you could call him and its just about not really feeling the same or thinking about reaching an old friendship back and also wondering why/if you'd really want to either

Why Did I Say Hello?

-By Jimmy Lopez

Words looked for you in real life

Its a way to say "yes"

I've spoken to you Face to face

In a black and white format

But I couldn't fine you

I wanted to...

Just to feel alive again

Just to have someone to turn to

But I don't need this everyday hello at the same time

And It's not ever going to be the same

Even though today it felt like it

Its just one day

But Im sorry

I don't even know who you are anymore

Your voice sounds someone other then yourself

And its not you I see even if I were to look hard enough

And look deeper then the surface of your hello

Its not the same

So why did I say hello?

Wednesday, January 07, 2009 I Dont Care

About The Poem: This poem is about just being anger and letting people know you wont let them walk all over you ect...

its also about not being afriad to show everyone and anyone that you can stand up for yourself.

I Dont Care
-By Jimmy Lopez

Soundless footsteps marched into my mind
But I never knew I could be that person
Its an anger that builds deep inside and today
it help me stop the tears from flowing

outspoken
my anger thru words that for some odd reason
made me walk outside my heart

they cheer for the bad
and in that state I'm not sad or disappointed

I'm just the me I never knew I was

Its like a sting of hope in a rotten stage
helps me hold my head up high but a bit enraged

but I'm still me

It's a place where pain is not acceptable
tears don't rain
and being walked all over will and cant ever happen

its also a way to let yourself believe in false respect
but that's better then nothing…

Monday, January 12, 2009 Dear God

About This Poem: This was A letter I wrote to God yesterday
but I decided to turn it into a poem
HOPE you like it ...

Dear God
-By Jimmy Lopez

Mindless music sway my feet to the corner of my memories
It bleeds with the pulse of my heart to create its own beat of a time where I'm able to see where I belonged

Oh how I'd long to reach the fingertips of your truth
and seek an even deeper life with you

Its a hallway of scripture coded in the dark
could you brighten the words I haven't read

Help me feel alive again

Its to cold out to not notice the numbness of today
because only you see how false my happiness still is as I lay to sleep for tomorrow