I Hate You

Soundly screams sound like silent whispers to me as well now

and you cant follow me nor see me down here

so runaway I don't want you watching me as I bleed

Just keep running

It's the only promise you've kept

the only one you could keep

Thank you for the sweet lies I should have known them all along because they were just artificially sweeten words

How come you all of you still mean something to me

when I don't mean a thing to myself

I hate you

but only when you cant see me eye to eye

I Hate You

but only when you haven't replied

I Hate You

Just because I haven't died

I Just Want To Hate You....

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How Come (Original Version)

About This Poem: There are 2 versions of the poem. they're both titled How Come and this poem was a poem I wrote when I was 13 years old. Yes I found a poem I wrote when I was a little little kid...But anyways here's the original version along with the re-write version I wrote both at age 13

Thank You

-Jimmy Lopez

How Come (Original Version)

-By Jimmy Lopez

How Come it's me I'm always wrong

I'm the one with the broken song

I'm the one with no smile just a frown

I'm right where you left me on the ground

How Come its me I'm all alone

everywhere I go I'm on my own

When will I feel better

Could you Give me a letter

A letter from you to me
but your letter had nothing inside it

How Come

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How Come (Final Version)

-By Jimmy Lopez

How Come its me thats always wrong

The one with a broken song

The one with a fake smile a true frown

and me on the ground

How Come its me all alone

Even when im at home

at school its not better

just give me a letter

A letter of fate

A letter of death

A letter with nothing inside it

How Come

I Am Jimmy Lopez

Just me, myself and I

I'm a kid lost in a world full of strangers
Most of them I don't know
Most of them I don't want to know
Yet I always wonder who they are, who they might be


Lost inside a possibility
Only to remember I'm nobody but me
Please don't forget me as December ends
Everyday I fight with my Mind crazy like an animal locked in the
Zoo


I rather stay in stillness
So calm like my old spirit


My mind wonders off again
Everyday I dream of paradise

Before I Saw You

I saw the was day really ends
Silently I whisper “goodbye”

If I can look up at this day, I know I’m still alive
But I look down and I can’t smile

Am I dead?
Am I still real and can you see me?

Somehow I still breathe
Unwillingly
But I still breathe

As I count my heart beat
Faster and faster it beats
But I’m not worried about it stopping

Believe me when I say “Goodnight” is a word of darkness
It reminds me I’ve failed to say “Good morning”
But everyday is the end
And I wait for you to see my reality

You never saw the way I try to mend my broken smile
And I also tried asking if you could stay a while before you saw me
But day ends so fast and it’s a waste of time

And I’ll see you go anyways so just leave

My eyes follow the pain of time
And all this time I thought it was there to mock me
But time hurts more then I ever had
And now I know why it hurt real bad before I saw you


Did you?

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Why December Cries

Just breath don't forget your alive

and remember the way December tried to smile
at least she tried to unlike me

but I heard her cry again
and she pretends and lets you see false beauty
fall like glitter



It's just frozen rain yet she still lies
like i did when they saw me crying
"I'm Okay" I said that day...


She feels empty, its her holiday
and everyone thinks shes perfect
but she owns Wednesday
and all she can is look back and forth
so can you see how stuck she is


she can even reach the weekend


...So I could understand why December cries on Christmas
but not the reason she'd lie to me
shes a reflection of my memory
and shes really just a month
but her name was also temporary
and I'll she her sometime soon when its not to cold out

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Time

Time consumes me to a still moment
Were everything stays the same just to help me cope To make me believe I'll be okay for good now
Because time increases hope

They always say they'll be there
But really time changes hope

Left in that moment alone

Do I really need anyone anymore?

I rather leave say goodbye first

Before I have to pretend that I wont miss you

That I'm okay now

That I'll be fine cause I know your always going to be there

But I'm not

Misunderstanding everything…

How was this life was supposed to be lived?

And were did I turn wrong now

What do I end up doing to hurt this much again

I HATE this fake smile plastered on my face

With just one look back and no feeling to help replace

The thought of you

I'll watch the sunset go

But unlike everything else I know It'll come back soon…

but will I

Should I really stay and see if time will change everything again

Or go some were new leave everything behind

And start over

Everyone needs a fresh start at one point in their life…right?

Or do we have to deserve it?

I cant take this anymore

Just want to change everything

Before time gets to it first and claws my heart and helps it bleed

What Now...

What do we do when it's all said and done.
do we runaway or stay to only find out we're unimportant?
The week is over and all I can feel is falling apart

Trust...Love...Friendship
It all seems unreal

To fall asleep and awaken in the arms or sorrow
whats the point in waking up right?

If I forget how to smile I can look back into the past
Whos to help a person like me

Who has the time to mend somthing this broken?
You think all you have to do is listen...
Tell It lies......
Say what it wants to hear...
Right?okay..

One = Himself

Me alone like always we all mess up
some more then others
but we're only human right?

Here Listen to this...

Drugs = Happiness
Cuts = Stressless
Death = Peace

When scars remind us that you know nothing but saddness
makes it seem like pain is our Best Friend.

I guess what i'm saying is that whos "real" anymore
Real Friend, Person, Whatever

All my life I've been stuck with people who dont give a damn about me
and I'm done being used

sometimes I dont want "friends" because I dont like being left Behind
but maybe they dont leave me behind maybe I just can't keep up
but then again maybe they dont want me to
maybe the only reason they move or go so fast is because they got sick of me
To tell you the truth sometimes i think this is all just bad dream
and I'm still waiting for the day i wake up...

Have you ever thought that maybe when we "Die" or "Pass Away"we're not dead
we just woke up from a Nightmare
I Want To Wake Up From Mine
The Perfect Nobody
Jimmy

With Closed Eyes

-By Jimmy L.

Were I lay to sleep is never home

I awaken in a dream to never want to sleep

Twisted nightmares go flat

but never make me runaway

yet still I turn and look back

such a waste of time...

your words flow as if they were mine

repeating simple sentences

and still I fake this smile

to me, to you

This day ends, my door shuts

My eyes rain like the sky in an April storm

and these thought I over think blindly
stay stuck and unexposed

I drown and sink under them

And still my eyes are closed

Hes Stuck

Part 2 to So Still

In a World were to die is the only way to get some rest...

The more he want to forget the more he seems to fall apart

How to understand poor kid lifelessly sitting...

sitting, waiting for a chance to smile again a real chance to live this time but no hes just sitting there hoping, hoping that maybe this time he'll forget how much hes cried.

how unimportant hes become. The world slowly forgetting he still alive

...He still hates himself, still thinks everything will stay the same because so far nothing has changed.

he want to find home

can he run... keep running afraid to stop.

He still lives to sleep and dream that tomorrow will be a better day

to feel even better to let you

but would he let go?

So Still

Part 1 -By Jimmy

He Opens his eyes.

Lost so confused he still smiles... why?

Sometimes he forgets to slow life down and keeps running to live...

but could he get far? Do we really know what he's up to...

The clock ticks and hes a step closer but a step closer to what... A step closer to who... Do we know or will we ever?

Time is so still a tear drop falls but feels like hes been Crying for hours.

Its funny to pretend your perfect, but foolishly he acts that part. when you look away you think hes still there smiling but secretly hes fallen apart...

Part 2 (He's Stuck) Coming soon!

Remember Thursday...

-By Jimmy Lopez


I can remember the last real conversation we had
Where day was ending into silent dreams
But it was okay because you said

"Goodnight"

Where heart ace shimmered in the sky
And counted plains took them high
To help me forget I'm alone

And I add these several tears to the lake below
Where everyone's sorrow drowns alive
And I'll be okay because you said so
But I'm not

In public time disappears
As countless cars race by
In hope to push my pain in front of them
But that pain is mine
And that's my life

But it was okay that day

And I remember our last conversation we had
Where day ended into silent dreams
But it was okay because you said

"Goodnight"

When They Say Welcome?

There’s a new time for everything.
A new place and new thoughts. I’m not going to go full out crazy and type away my ideas and hope you read what I’ve posted, don’t get me wrong I do hope you enjoy what I have to say but I wont force you to….

Well Im Jimmy Lopez...
And i guess I always have something to say.
I love writing poetry and short stories so I guess that’s what ill be doing mostly on here.

Well thanks for your time and I hope you come back

-Jimmy